weaker than i thought

now i believe that i am weaker than i thought....it is so bad for me to have a wrong self-concept ....I don't know where to begin...........my time is almost up and i am not ready............... May God help me........u know the worst and the most irritable thing in my life is that others do not know me............they think i am strong..........this is what they think out of my appearance.... i did not tell them explicitly about it...........maybe my behavior is firm and purposeful but to me this does not make me strong............when i am strong, i can do what i want... not defeated by worldly desires..................I have many ppl around me but i am all alone.............they trust me, i do not .... so complicated.................so sad.............how pooe i am.........i see that all my wishes are shattering in front of me.... and i cannot do anything to stop it............God help me.................once i had very big wishes, now i am down.......just trying to survive..............

when i went to Gorgan city for the first time to enroll the uni, I had a dream...........strange dream...........next post i describe it God wiling

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